Feeling Sad

So I feel super sad tonight. I started looking around Facebook and honestly I don't know why I do it to myself. My friends are no longer my friends. No one writes, calls, emails. Its like not only did I divorce my ex by I divorced all the people I love. I don't want to say i am jealous but its difficult to not hear from your best friend but then find out she is friends with your ex's new girlfriend. I need to accept that those are not the same people for me. No use trying to mend friendships that just don't exist. I really wish I would not be sensitive but I am.

Then here I just feel like I don't fit in anywhere. I just want to build relationships with women like I had in the past. I want people to call me to see if I want to hang out. I have gotten so used to not having friends that I just don't try as hard anymore. That is not a good thing. Hoping God just heals my heart because honestly I just want to cry and i know that isn't going to fix it.